`[Verse of 31th October.]
The memory of the righteous is blessed, but the name of the wicked will rot. -Proverbs 10:7

i wonder how much a cake will cost. and i hope saturday will be a memorable day for xiu feng. this is the first time i'm throwing a surprise for someone. but... its ruined, because xiu feng would probably guess whats gonna happen. someone spoke of the surprise in front of her. see if you can guess who. =D if there's going to be a surprise of any sort no one should tell me.. i'd probably do something dumb and ruin the surprise. sorry man.. didnt mean to let the cat out of the bag..

cleaned my cupboard today. i saw the poster that i was supposed to be passing to alson for isabelle at any possible time. but... when he could meet me, i was troubled then and didnt want to meet him. -laughs nervously. seriously, i should get my priorities stright.

been having a hard time persuading gab to go with us on saturday. i've been getting used to gab's presence with our get-togethers that i'd feel uneasy without her there. like something's missing. unfortunately, my attempts were unfruitful. i need help here!!

The greatest gift anyone can give us is an godly example.

`[Verse of 29th October.]
Pray to the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into his harvest. -Matthew 9:38

its raining terribly for a few days now. i really pray that it wouldnt rain next saturday. it would just about ruin everything.

been feeling weird these few days. as if i dont feel like doing anything, going anywhere. i dont know the reason for my feeling like this. its not because of my going to S3N(A) or anything.. i've been feeling terribly stressed lately.

i hope to let everything out on saturday, and throw all my troubles into the sea. since xiu feng's birthday is two days after next saturday, i hope she'll enjoy it and i hope i feel better to celebrate it together with her. but isabelle's not going. things wont be the same.

sincerely hope it doesnt rain on saturday. because it just means alot to me.

I cant believe its hard just to talk to you, but you dont understand.

`[Verse of 28th October.]
turn my eyes away from looking at worthless things, and revive me in Your way. -Psalm 119:37

today was terribly tiring. first there was this thanksgiving service, then i met xiu feng and sherlyn outside our homeroom to tell them that they meant alot to me and i'm going to miss them, stuff like that. i was supposed to meet my friend after the service. but i didnt have the chance to get home to change as the service ended terribly late.

so i met him, we walked around orchard, den dhoby ghaut, den city hall. i lend shumei my phone, and arranged to meet her back at orchard station at 2. i was a tad late, and i guess she left already. hais. and in kino i realised that i lost my certificate. -_-"

so came back, went for dental. i was so tired, and i still had to wait like, 45 mins before my dentist was free to see me. after that had to make a detour to get danielle. i slept so comfortably in the backseat, den suddenly danielle told me to get up, and make space for her 4 friends to hitch a ride. i was like, ni you mei you gao cuo.. there wasnt even space for me to put my legs, let alone finish my nap. hais. after that i tried to sleep again, but danielle decided to put on loud hip hop music. nice one.

my legs are so sore... ahh..

and the open wound on my heel hurt like mad when i was walking.. sheesh.. i hope it heals by next saturday. how can i enjoy a day of sun and fun when i cant put my feet in the ocean or even on the sand? cant imagine. and dont intend to go through that. i shiver at that very thought. brrr.

The more we are attracted to Christ, the less distracted we will be by the world.

`[Verse of 27th October.]
O you who hear prayer, to You all flesh will come. -Psalm 65:2

returned from meet the parents and lunch. when i saw my results i felt like a piece of junk. even isabelle got promoted. but me?.. ah.. dont even want to think about it...

when dad saw my results his mood totally changed. his mood turned nasty, and when my mom asked him a harmless question he snapped at her. i got quite mad. my mom wasnt doing anything anw. he decided to plan our lives over lunch. he asked us to write down our plans, but he ended up depriving us of even the choice to hang out with friends. i was like.. hais. after asking us a question he would answer it himself. i felt like yelling at him and storming out. he kept rubbing it in, and making it sound as if we didnt know how to manage our lives. everything needed to be perfect. when he asked us what we wanted to eat, i nearly yelled at him, saying since he was in the midst of planning out our lives why not plan what we eat too. he even had issues on how we eat. i was so mad then. but when i looked up i saw a picture of the chinese word "ren" on a wall at the restaurant we were at.

i duno what to do now. i'm so scared. all of my best friends are going up except me. i cant believe it. i didnt want to leave them alone. i didnt want to be left alone. other than aaron i wouldnt know anyone. i cant imagine how lonely i'd get. i cant imagine how scared of losing my friends i'd get. no one knows how i feel about this right now.. i just... ah.. forget it.. i dont want to think about it anymore.

God hears more than our words, He listens to our hearts.

`[Verse of 26th October.]
Sell whatever you have and give it to the poor, and you wil have treasure in heaven. -Mark 10:21

haha, gab's making a friendship band for me. hees. i asked her to do it but she was rather reluctant. haha. i bet its really boring, sitting there and just twisting a couple pieces of thread around. but the outcome's nice though. she has a natural knack for it, being a beginner.

its been raining these few days. brrr. temperature dropped too.

i've been getting a few letters from people like aaron, xiu feng and isabelle. sigh, poor aaron. if its not problems of the heart, its academically. if its not academically, its problems from the parents. poor kid. he said that i was the only one he could talk to without any worries. i hate myself for brushing him off without a thought in the past few weeks. geez. how could i do such a thing. i hope his problems are solved soon, with the help of the Lord. will pray for him.

ahh! i forgot to hand up my geog! sigh.. i burnt the midnight oil yesterday night to finish it too.. sheesh. ms toh will kill me. and tomorrow's meet the parents. luckily its only 5 mins. but alot can be said in 5 mins though. i hope she wont advise me against hanging out with xiu feng and isabelle again. hais. dont understand why i shouldnt be with them. never mind la.

i'm worried about tomorrow. i guess its because i did badly. okok.. gotta go. see you.

Salvation is given, not earned.

`[Verse of 25th October.]
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. -2Timothy 4:7

CHRISTMAS IS COMING!! heehee. i'm probably excited over the presents. but.. "giving is better than receiving", soooo.... my friends and sister have been hinting since they know we're drawing near to Christmas. hais, these friends of mine. but i know what they want, because i've seen their eyes light up when they're looking at this particular thing. now i cant wait to see their eyes light up again when they see what i'm planning to get them. so, to be a "proud and happy fairsian" [quoted from the famous sharleen], i'm going to try to give them what they long for. i'm going to ask mom if she needed anything done for me to earn abit of present money. i'm abit tight now. i know what to get isabelle, but no idea for the rest of them. -grumble grumble. oh yes, i've seen a few beautiful musical boxes while windown shopping the other day. ahem ahem. haha, nola. i'm just fooling around. i think i'm too happy today.. seriously..

life can seem so unrealistic at times.

There are no losers with Jesus and no winners with the devil

`[Verse of 24th October.]
He who glories, let him glory in the Lord. ---2 Corinthians 10:17

my dad bought a book labelled "Disapponintment with God", and he wrote a message for me in the second page. i think he remembered that my friends have problems and i really want to help. mmmz. after i study for the maths quiz tomorrow i'll read the book. can slowly study and understand the book.

ahh, i miss my phone.. =( i've been using my mom's extra phone, but i like mine the best. just when i bought that new thinger to hang on the phone too. but nvm, i'm changing my phone soon as my plan expires next month. but now the problem is that i dont know which phone i should change to. -grumble. decisions decisions.

i cant believe the school term is extended by two weeks. there goes my perfect holiday. its something like remedials after remedials for 2 weeks. grr. i wonder whose idea was it. anw.. i gotta go. i've to write a letter and start on my revision.

have been thinking of many things these few days. matters of the heart, friendship, school and religion. i find myself closer to God in the past few weeks, and i experience peace and His mercy. so ya, i'm grateful that i can draw nearer to him. i have a plan to help me and jon get closer to Him, and i hope jon will oblige.

sherlyn came over when i was stoning. gab invited her as she wanted to bowl after that. but we couldnt get through to isabelle, so we went to tiong, after much persuasion. i wanted to look at some stuff too. mmmz. looked at some things and went with sherlyn to get her eye drops. after which we went to popular to read some of the books. me and sherlyn read chicken soup, and the stories touched her to tears. could hear her sniffling away. i was reading the "chicken soup for the christian teenage soul", and the stories are brilliant. true accounts, and its wonderful to see how God touched to many lives like that. hmmm.. ya..

when surfing blogger.com, i came across many nice Christian skins, and i think it should be meaningless to keep changing. i already have one that i'm in love with anyway.

gab asked my dad about the 'da vinci code', and listened to my dad's views. its about the same as daniel's, but different in aspects. quite interesting to listen to their views. hmmz..

haha my dad can be a counsellor. my mom has a friend whom has problems, and my dad's counselling her right now. listening to him speak can be really motivational and inspiring. haha.

oh yes, some people may be confused most of the time, and they may think its bad. but actually its good, because it shows that you are thinking. if you think alot, and you get confused, thats normal. if you dont think, confusion is unlikely to occur, isnt it? haha.. it may and it may not make sense. but if you're confused over this, its ok, shows you're thinking. makes sense? okok, i think i'll stop this.. haha. even i'm getting confused. but never mind, at least i'm thinking. heehee.

hmmm, anw, its getting late, and i think two entries for today is a tad more than enough. haha. nite all.

`[Verse of 23rd October.]
Epaphras. . . greets you, always labouring fervently for you in prayers. . . I bear him witness that he has great veal for you. --- Colossians 4:12-13

k, let's start off first with the apologies. sorry i didnt update in the past two days. been too busy or tired lately.

hmmms.. been told dad's getting a medal or something. i was asked to go along by my mom. but i turned her down. medal-giving ceremonies turn me off. i dont think i have "posh-enough" clothes for it anyway.

dad asked me to go for a run when i woke up. i gave him a face that he said "huh? okay, maybe it was a bad joke". ladies and gentlemen, meet my dad, the president of sarcasm. -_-"

i was actually "planning" to write about yesterday. but on second thought, no. i'm trying to forget about it, and writing it down wont be helping me.

gabby u ok? sorry bout yesterday.. =D

`[Verse of 20th October.]
You know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that thought He was rich, yet for your sakes He became poor. ---2 Corinthians 8:9

i went for extraction today. i nearly screamed whilst the dentist was in the midst of pulling them out. i was screaming out to the Lord to help me.. haha. He helped me, and i was fine later, while the numbing thinger [not sure of the spelling] was still in effect. my cheeks swelled up due to the side-effects, and one little boy pointed at me and said, "mummy, look like ghost!"

ahh!!

haha, but its ok.. i probably looked freaky. my mouth hurt really bad later, and my dentist said it wasnt a good sign, but to each his own huh? she injected my mouth again, and this time i saw the injection. you know how big and long that stupid thing is?! i nearly fainted when i saw it. i still shiver with the thought of it. got prescribed some painkillers, and i feel like swallowing all of them now. havent got them yet though. lazy. haha.

ok, i look as if i've got two meatballs stuffed into my cheeks. the numbing thinger is wearing off.. owww..

`[Verse of 19th October.]
It is enough! Now, Lord, take my life! ---1 Kings 19:4

due to the stupid rash i contracted the past 3 days, i only managed to fork in an hour or so of sleep. it spread like a wildfire. when i looked in to the mirror i almost screamed. terribly ugly. geez. i hope it will be gone soon. i spent the whole of last night biting my lips to keep myself from scratching and watched tv. not a good way to spend a holiday. my grandma applied some white wine for me. the beach outing yesterday made it ten times worse but i dont regret going. i had so much fun. hm.

lucky for me my mom had a spare phone. some salt water got into my phone and it totally spoilt it. and in a month's time i can get a new one, but the models now arent very...nice. oh geez, i'm starting to itch again!! kk gotta go.. i hope i can apply more white wine. bbye..

`[Verse of 17th October.]
Enter into His gates with thanksgiving, and into His courts with praise. ---Psalm 100:4

even though the world is hurting me all around every second of everyday, this verse will always remind me that whatever happens in this world, God does for the benefit of all of us. I dont know what benefit is there but i trust Him. nothing in this world can depress me more than the depression that Jesus died for us but very few praise Him.

i went to my younger sister's bbq at downtown east yesterday night. ten people were supposed to come, but about 6 of them backed out at the last minute. so inconsiderate. but anw, when i arrived with my parents i felt really awkward, cos i didnt really know any of them there. one of danielle's friends, alcinda, had her parents and brother over. i asked dad to tell me more about Psalm 23 and its meaning, and from there he explained to me about what God wants for us and stuff. when he left to take photos of danielle and her friends, i sat down and asked my mom more questions. so, ya. i enjoyed that. i could understand more.

alcinda's parents joined in the conversation. her dad really has an SOH. when he joked i laughed myself sore. as danielle had a pair or extra roller blades, i put them on and went with her for a quick blade around the park. it was fun, but the blades were so small. my feet were hurting in there. yeouch. alcinda's dad cooked some chicken wings and offered one to me and my mom. we politely took it, but when he said its been 25 years since he barbequed, my stomach churned. had to eat it, and pretended to enjoy it. it wasnt thoroughly cooked tho.

when we left, my dad lifted up the top of the convertible. we drove home with the top off. but when he picked up speed i left the blood drain from my face. when he stopped at the red light my face felt numb. luckily dun have pins and needles. =P it was ok, but breathing was hard cos the air is pushing toward ur face. luckily spectacles were designed in front, not at the back. or i think we'd have lost them. God sure thinks of everything! =D

hmmm. i read a book about questions that teenagers ask about friends and parents. it was really funny cos i saw it at a "kid's" point of view. heehee. quite cute.

The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want ---Psalm 23

`[Verse of 16th October.]
Here we have no continuing city, but we seek the one to come ---Hebrews 13:14

Okay, pinch me, I'm crazy. When I looked at the neoprints yesterday I laughed like crazy. I was the only one in the room and I was laughing to myself. I was looking at the one that read "whats wrong". Sherlyn was making this monkey face that is really hilarious. I was abit down before I looked at them, as I was the only "kid" in the house. Gab and Danielle both went for a stayover. Yawnz.

The Phil Collins cd ar.... Really nothing to say. What a disappointment. But its ok, Jonathan's sending me the songs "stranger like me" and "circle of life". Hees. I've been long wanting those two songs. Yay. My world is half complete. Hees.

I love love love love love love love the neoprints to bits!!

`[Verse of 15th October.]
Take heed to yourself, . . . lest you forget the things your eyes have seen. . . and teach them to your children. ----Deuteronomy 4:9

the day started when i received a horrid sms from someone. ya ok, so it started negatively. then i couldnt finish my art in the time given. that one i have no hope of passing. gracia couldnt finish on time too.

after that we [kristal, gab, sherlyn and me] were supposed to go to the zoo. but i had second thoughts as i thought zoos were all mosquitos, aches in legs, sun burns and hot sun. but im glad gab persuaded me to go as she was making me out to be the world's greatest jerk if i didnt go. so i went. i found twenty bucks in my wallet, so i went to buy the phil collins cd. the bus and mrt ride was really long, i think combined it took about 45 mins. i slept on the bus.

it was cool, we took many photos with gab's camera. touched a horse, picked up rabbits, fed goats, talked to a friendly zoo-keeper. it was great. had lotsa fun.

after that we took the bus back to the mrt station, and then decided to follow gab and kris to cine for some thinger. took two neos together, and it was really fun and rad. the neos are really great. i loved it a lot. today was great. loved every minute. =))

abit turned off by that sms this morning though. oh well.

`[Verse of 14th October.]
"Son, your sins are forgiven . . . . get up, take up your mat and walk". ---Mark 2:5,11

sigh. gab's "mood-swinging" again. just because she has to extract her teeth today but she wanted to sleep she slammed the door open and left it there when the air con was on. attitude sia.

erms.. anw.. had chinese 2 and chemistry today. i was so nervous my hand was trembling when i was writing. i knew i knew the answer, but i just couldnt remember. annoying, really.

ahh! tomorrow's art. and i havent touched my color schemes or layout plans yet. hehs. better get started soon, eh? i hope i pass. cant believe the exam's 17 hours away. its killing me. mdm lim already complained to the moe that 3 weeks including exams were really too short for prep work. how do they expect us to hand in grade-A work when we gotta cram for exams too? and 3 layouts and 3 color schemes by tomorrow? no way.

`[Verse of 13th October .]
The Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve. —Matthew 20:28

today was great. i met daniel at the airport along with joelson, sherlyn and xiu feng. we were supposed to go there to study. but later i kept talking to xiu feng. mm. when joelson found out i had some problem in chemistry, he helped me with my equations and all. he gave me examples and told me to try it out. i soon caught the concept. its actually quite easy. i wish i met him earlier though. tomorrow's my chemsitry exam already. i guess if i have some problem in chem i could ask him again. i wanted to thank him, but i didnt find the chance to. he helped me alot. he was really outgoing, not afraid to know new people. he explained the periodic table to me and stuff. really cleared my doubts. really glad daniel brought him along or i'd be relyng on my prayers to help me pass. i wanted to stay on more, but it was getting late and xiu feng needed to go home. sigh. i hope her mom doesnt scold her. i was the one who made her about 2 hours late. i kept saying sorry along the way home. my conscience was pricking me. but i told her to tell her mom the truth, that i had made her late.

i had fun today though. i learned and had fun. it wasnt really productive, but at least i learned something useful. some fella hacked into my account i think. changed the password. grr. i had to change it. hope nothing happens again.

going to the zoo on monday, i think. geog ends early, so we're making use of the afternoon to party since exams were over. i seriously hope i can pass my exams.

erm, yeah, gotta go. have to make a phone call... ... ... seeya.... ....

Hees!! I'm so happy. Ecstatic. Me and Isabelle are A-OK! hees. I feel like grabbing someone's arm and dancing around the living room. Its incredible. When I found out that we're okay I looked as if I slept with a hanger in my mouth. But seriously, I'm really glad.

`[Verse of 12th October.]
If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me. —Matthew 16:24

ahh there's something wrong with the m in Matthew. it turned into chinese words. -_-" anw.

today's history elective. it was okay, i was writing rubbish though. instead of comparing the source next to contextual knowledge, all i did was to interpret the sources. there wasnt any contextual knowledge in my head. hee. luckily mr ow isnt marking our papers. i think our answers would "qi si ta".

erms.. tomorrow's maths 2 and physics. ugh. i have high hopes for physics cos i studied for that. and its kinda my fave subject next to english.

oh yeah, if i dont pass english i might as well commit suicide. my mom would kill me twice.

today's english paper 2 and math 1. they're both okay, so far i think i have a 50-50 chance of passing. scary.

during the break i broke my glasses. -_-" so i had to squint to read the questions of the maths paper. the paper was so close to my face and i wrote really big. got a bad headache later. mr ow saw and told me to find mr hamid later. so i got through the paper. when mr ow got taken over by mr yaw, i guess he must've went to find mr hamid. he came back with a kit and handed it to mr yaw, mumbling something and pointing to me. so mr yaw fixed my specs for me. =P haha. at least for the last 15 mins i didnt have to squint.

erms. you guys out there will probably not like this, but.. i think someway or other its my fault, this isabelle and me feud. i really dont want it to continue. but i'll apologize publicly. whether or not she'll see and whether or not she'll accept its totally up to her. well..

i'm sorry for whatever i've done to isabelle. [i've betrayed her trust or something]. but whatever it is i hope to apologize and get a friend back. and hope this apology is accepted too. i'm sorry.
michelle

erms~ printed like, 9 pieces of research. when gabie sees it she'll probably say, "walau u think free ink ar. ppl buy for you so use wisely lah. den me leh. if there's no more ink left you're gonna die". actually, not so bad la. i'm just fooling around. so yeah, got really good pics on gettyimages. theme's The Journey. gonna go along the same line as my batik [salvation] cos i've got some good ideas while surfing the net. so its gonna be like, my life through Christ or something. dunno, havent thought bout the description yet. bugged mdm lim yesterday cos wanted to know more bout the exam. i'm not sure whether N(A) 's exam's gonna be the same as express. i hope so, or it would be only me and gracia sitting there for 3 hours. and i hope i'll pass. i hardly ever get more than a C5. bleh. -points at myself. shame on you.

poor xiu feng. saw her getting interogated by isabelle's dad. she kept saying, "i dont know, i dont know", but her dad kept asking questions. i saw isabelle standing behind her with an unbelieveably angry frown. poor xiu feng. poor girl. it was always me who got interogated. i wonder if she's still there~

uhhh nothing to do~ yeah, yeah, i know, study. but come on, gimme a break. in my pass four exams there's 50-50 chance of failing. ahh. so scared. i hope ms toh wont mark my geog paper. i was doing my geog and after 2 hours [paper's 2 and a half hours] i realised that there cant be so many questions. so i flipped to the front page and saw that i was supposed to choose 3 out of 5. i was muttering,"shit, shit, shit" after i found out. duno if sherlyn heard, she was in front of me. so i cancelled and copied the questions i knew on a new sheet of paper and started doing another question. miraculously i had 15 mins left for a snooze after. it looked like everyone had to use more than 4 sheets of examination paper cos they kept asking for more paper. it looked like i was the only one who was able to use 3 sheets only. i didnt study for that one, and it was already very graceful of God to let me know how to answer 3 questions.

at the starting of the day i asked if ziluo had brought thread. he shook his head, saying it was only for MCQ. so i told him, "today's MCQ, dood". he looked at me and laughed, then said "today's paper 2 girl". i cant believe i screamed in the middle of the parade square. luckily fairfield was noisy enough to drown that. wendy was beside me, and she said "wa you die!" so i was like "d'oh". nvm la. over le.

ahh!! mdm lim called!! i didnt hand up my 2 sketches for art. -_-" see la, michelle. now you gotta go back to school to hand her the sketches or she'll call your parents. crap.

hmm. talk about my day huh? hmm, so where do i start? how bout i start where my day started to screw up?

a few seconds after i sat down, matthew turned around and mouthed to me, format, taught wrongly! so you can imagine what happened. i could have died right there. we're separated by bands. matthew was also in my band. so the others in different bands got the format right, whereas mine, didnt. i was so worried i even forgot to put the title on my report. -_-" and i had actually started straight off, rambling on bout "as a treat for students who have worked so hard for the exams, the school has decided to organise a camp for the Sec Three level". and i forgot to bring my vocab book too. when i wanted to use a word for my report, i forgot the spelling. so yeah, i screwed up there too. so i'm dead for paper one section 2. i hope i do well in paper one section 1 and paper two or its retaining for me.

so, secondly, i lost track of time and spent 60mins on source-based questions for social studies. i knew a lot of info for the structured, but oh dear, i spent 45mins on part a) and forgot about part b! smart move huh? well i dont think so. argh today's so screwed!! and i found out i failed my geog test paper! again! i duno why, but i always do lousily in geog. and really, i think ms toh's got something against me. its always me she scolds. like, what did i do to her?? when ziluo is the one who talked to me and i answer, oh, its me who gets the scolding. and i did a beautiful job out of the assignment she gave us. i was the only one of the 4 that did. and she didnt even say anything. i'm trying, man. cant you just cut me some slack.

and on top of that my printer still wont print. okay, thats it, my art's going down, so's my english and social studies. let's hope tomorrow's better.

argh!! i found a few great pictures for my art end year exam and the stupid printer wont print! how do they expect me to produce good work if the stupid printer wont print? Kk never mind..

well.. i received an email which kinda touched my heart. it was an email where teenagers were supposed to draw the person they disliked the most, and paste it up on a bullseye target. after awhile, the professer took down the target, and behind it was a picture of Christ. so he shared bout how people trash him after he had died for us.

when Satan wanted to destroy the earth and rule it his own way, Jesus asked what would the cost be in exchange for our lives. Satan said Jesus' suffering and blood. and Jesus replied "DONE!" without so much of a thought. so it kinda shows Jesus' love for us, and yet we still trash him. it was really sad. but also shows what we're actually doing. well, gotta go. seeu.

i did the quizz of sherlyn's. lol. and the answers were really cute:
You are a XSIG--Expressive Sentimental Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Teddy Bear.Hee! I just want to give you a big squeeze. You are tender, honest, generous and fair. You are an excellent kisser and a sensitive, communicative lover, and you know it. You would never intentionally hurt someone's feelings or overstep his/her boundaries. You have beautiful eyes.

You are so rational and deliberate in an argument that it can frustrate and exhaust your partner. Your fights can take forever, but your press on with them until they are completely resolved and both you and your partner are satisfied. If your partner is weak of will, s/he may just give in -- be wary of this! An emotional or passive-aggressive outburst later will hurt and horrify you.

It is *critically important* that you are able to respect your partner. The moment you lose respect for him/her, you lose everything.

When you make friends, you make them for life -- you can go without speaking to a friend for years and pick up right where you left off. You are completely faithful, both physically and emotionally. You are the second best (to XPIG) parent of any type.

If you are male, you have a huge shlong. Just saying. Of the 121905 people who have taken this quiz, 8.1 % are this type.

cute right. next time just call me the Teddy Bear. lol~

feeling horrid horrid horrid. missed skool today cuz i still had a slight fever. when my papa felt my forehead his fingers were ice cold.. brrr~ before he left he switched on tha air con. dunno for what. by that time i was wide awake le wor. so took a bath and tried not ta faint. jkjk. dl-ed some game on my hp and played for bout an hour? quite cool~ abit dumb tho..

dun feel like going to the doc. dun wanna go through all his rambles bout the med and all. costly too~ so i hope ms wong accepts my letter of excuse. well she'd better. if she can accept isabelle's why cant she accept mine. i'll sue ar~ dunno why i keep using "sue" nowadays.. maybe because some jerk hit my dad's car right after he bought it. that was the first time i used "sue". oh well~

kk la better use this time to study~ exams are in 2 days and i havent picked up my books yet.. i tink can get ready to die le..

Bias judgment. Unworthy statement. Accused and slandered. Mistreated falsely.

pushed away and ignored
you always had something against me
hatred for me soared
the scorn in your eyes you knew clearly
anger rose with anything I say
condemnation of care and concern
your harsh words, its me you slay
we worry, just when will you learn?
two years of fun, you throw that all away
all the times I were with you
we were laughing everyday
problems together we saw through
now you condemn me to dirt
doubting my hunger of being true
anger and fury mixed with hurt
why you hate me, I never knew
thoughts of you rise whenever I pray
I always fell down in the rain
now, please, please, I'm begging you today
bury your hate for me, and start smiling again

My blog's screwed!! Lookit the bottom. Ahh!! It was the nicest part, too. Oh well. I'll leave it. Duno what to do le.

So, um, yeah. Thats it I guess. Seeya.

*you did something I will never forgive you for - you took your love away from me;;

SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING!! Was kinda busy.

Anw, so yesterday was cool. Went to study at the library after eating and fooling at This Fashion. I was really bored, so I did what was expected of me, STUDY. I finished my Physics notes, and kinda studied on the way too. When I found out I had to study the whole book of Geography by hook or by crook, I threw the book aside. Not very wise, but I didnt feel up to 9 chapters of Geog. After that I talked to ShuMei. She was talking to her friend on the phone in chinese, cos she was complaining bout the Malay people behind her. It was really funny. Xiu Feng and I kept laughing. But Gab couldnt see what was so funny. Mom was right, Gab needs a better SOH. Anw, that library sucks. I'm never going there again. I mean, since it was a study area there're probably proper tables, right? Well all the 'tables' were taken, so we had to sit on the floor. Ugh. The tables werent so great anw, they were so low you gotta sit on the floor to do work. And since you were allowed to eat, drink, listen to music and talk, it was so noisy. How does anyone get any work done around there??

So anw, went to eat at IMM as it was quite near the library. Gab wanted to take some funny, funny photos after dinner. But I guess I werent in the mood.. Ah. let's not talk bout that. Seeya.